I "am Lost And Don't Know What I'm Doing Anymore"

From nowhere, i was trying so fucking hard to remember the username. I couldn't. First i began with the finding this site. I was all like betterworlds.com or smallworld.com or beautifulwords.com. but it came to me while i was sleeping, similarworlds.com and so came the memory of username too. once reading all the 550 post here was my comfort thing. here i am again. i don't know what pain, i have been introduced to, what sorrow paves the path forgotten. everything is living and i am watching all of them, living. i wasn't her. HER was the host of my pain. the ache is as strong as it was in the first day. in the world to feel unwanted, unloved, not enough. the curses as all over me. i curse myself everday. i couldn't do it to you though i want to.