I Have Friends But Most Are Distant

Actually, I have no friends at the moment. Either online or in real life. But the theme of this post is a guy who I wanted to be his friend, and I am likely capable of doing so. I feel more united with this guy than with any of the people that were my friends in the past, and at present as well. He would be like a brother to me. But it's too hard for me to talk, I'm not even able to think straight because of medication use.