@Dayeshadow Because I know how things really are. Not just in my line of study/work, but also in the EU and in many parts of the world. It's an extremely long story which I am unwilling to tell in full but I can shorten it down to something more simple. I've seen and/or know about things which are so corrupt and so horrible that I've lost all hope in a brighter future and the only reason I haven't offed myself is because there's one person and a cat who I genuinely care about.