I Hate My Life Right Now

Hi. I am a 41 yr old male with a failed marriage of 10yrs and recently lost my partner of 13yrs. She waklked out with my two babies of 6 & 4. lost job 3 yrs ago. and been unemployed since. on meds for depression for years, i self harm and have a list of ways to give me that most blessed of sleep, and have done for a long time now. Life is hard my friend, even though i don't know you or your probs, i share with you and others that life is not good. i understand that when feeling this way we can often really not care about others probs. It's not selfish and it's ok to feel like this. Your hurt is very real, but life throws enough beatings our way so don't beat yourself up. Think about this "don't sweat the small stuff" and by the way,as i read once, it is indeed all small stuff. That's probably hard to accept right now but take it from someone who has learned to live just one day at a time. 'cause nothing else matters but the present. Who knows what the future brings and eventually with enough one days under your belt, hopefully, you'll also think "Who cares what's behind me". Talk to those who will listen. Don't despair over those that don't. Take each and every success and treasure it. Everything else is just there to waste time 'til the next success. If you wake up tomorrow, you're a success because getting from day to day is perhaps the hardest thing to do right now. I believe in you and so do lot's of others, right here and now. Give yourself a reason to be here tomorrow by being friends with others like yourself, share, comfort and celebrate every day. All you need do is talk for a short time. Say "I'm still here. It was hard as hell but hey, who would have thought?" and the answers you get will make you smile. One last thing, never think you won't be missed!