Dependent on Others

I’m 33, still living with my parents, and making less than $15/hour. I don’t think I’m ever going to be able to take care of myself like a normal adult should do. Things like pay my bills on time, take my meds, cook food, clean the house, etc. I am absolutely baffled that anyone does it. How can you make yourself do all that boring and intimidating work? And yeah, sure I feel ashamed, but not ashamed enough to change. Everything in life seems to take more work than what it’s really worth. And they say there’s nothing wrong with me. I have ADD, but that’s all. I’m very intelligent, don’t have autism or any physical disabilities. I’m generally really nice and sweet to others, I work hard when I work, and I really have a high tolerance for pain. But apparently I deserve to be where I am because I’ve made poor choices, I must be a lazy good-for-nothing bum, a mooch. I don’t know, I’m really scared. I’m tired of this, I don’t want to live like this anymore.