I Dont Make Friends Easy

I have been doing a lot of reading about relationships. Friendships. Self esteem confidence .how it is written makes it sound easy really easy but i am still finding it difficult especially with friendship and relationship sides and afew other issues i have sort of like because of years of being paranoid and stressing about things i have a hard time now of knowing and reading others body language like what I think and was is real like i might think of no this person does not like talking to me or like no i ain't good enough for this person i should not talk to them or things like that person works for a living and dresses really good i don't i am not good enough to talk to that person i have been focusing a bit more clearer and thinking that bit more positive just that I am confused and torn between what impressions i am getting and what is actually real if that makes sense struggling with that part and starting conversations i can say hi and talk if I know what to say it's just still a bit i am still not quite there i have not given up still fighting my way there just slightly still a bit struggling .