I Am So Freaking Tired Of Being Hurt

For 11 years I was beat. 6 by my x's best friend and by my friend at the time. 5 now by the people who want to see me suffer. During 4 of those 5 years i was being hurt by my girl bestfriend and she still hurtds me till this day. 3 years of being used. 2 of those years was by someone I was verry close to and when he hurt me I couldn't breath, and during those 2 years I didn't realize it but I was being hurt by my guy bestfriend also. Who knew someone so close to me could hurt me the most.