I Never Thought That My Life Would Turn Out Like It Did
Two Steps Forwards One Step Back... Here's the thing, and sorry if this might sound a bit unpolished and long but I am annoyed wanting to get this out, felt it was important enough to say it. But first a big of background, two years ago I was two years unemployed after college nearly broke and hating it. I didn't drive I couldn't afford anything, and was o.k in many ways but it felt stuck and was bored of the same routines day in day out.
Then somehow I get my act together long enough to find a job and finally improve my situation enough to start affording certain things I felt I needed to be more mobile again, with a comfortable enough margin to keep myself interested. Meanwhile the job which was never an ideal one to begin with starts to drain me to no end at how dull it is not to mention having to always dodge the managerial politics that goes on there. Important thing is the experience helped me grow finally I felt like I was getting somewhere.
I get laid off, and at the time I had my concerns but mostly I was actually kind of happy. In fact from the day I got the notice to the last felt like a kid towards the end of the school year. I had my savings, I had work experience, and an income through severance. Seemed like the perfect recipe for what I needed at the time. That was summer now it's the middle of winter I am still looking for a job.
Not much luck, so I decide to go back to school for a bit get some more training. It's a short program, just long enough for me to learn a few things to help me in the workplace. Again another good opportunity to grow, but unlike when I was working this time I felt active and engaged. I really enjoy being in academic environments, I've always been the type of person in classes to ask a bunch of questions and can spend hours talking about a subject.
But like all school programs it comes to an end, four months later and I am still out of work. While slightly better off than I was two years ago with the same gnawing feeling that the essentials of how I live my life hasn't changed much since then.
Then somehow I get my act together long enough to find a job and finally improve my situation enough to start affording certain things I felt I needed to be more mobile again, with a comfortable enough margin to keep myself interested. Meanwhile the job which was never an ideal one to begin with starts to drain me to no end at how dull it is not to mention having to always dodge the managerial politics that goes on there. Important thing is the experience helped me grow finally I felt like I was getting somewhere.
I get laid off, and at the time I had my concerns but mostly I was actually kind of happy. In fact from the day I got the notice to the last felt like a kid towards the end of the school year. I had my savings, I had work experience, and an income through severance. Seemed like the perfect recipe for what I needed at the time. That was summer now it's the middle of winter I am still looking for a job.
Not much luck, so I decide to go back to school for a bit get some more training. It's a short program, just long enough for me to learn a few things to help me in the workplace. Again another good opportunity to grow, but unlike when I was working this time I felt active and engaged. I really enjoy being in academic environments, I've always been the type of person in classes to ask a bunch of questions and can spend hours talking about a subject.
But like all school programs it comes to an end, four months later and I am still out of work. While slightly better off than I was two years ago with the same gnawing feeling that the essentials of how I live my life hasn't changed much since then.
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