I Wrote a Letter

I've been trying to see myself as you see me.. or rather saw me. I remember the way my cheeks would ache from smiling, how damned good I felt inside, from top to bottom. How empowered I felt basking in your light, your love. I try to be bold, confident and sure, to feel and Be who I was with you.. but I'm slipping and faltering. Granted, I take it as a small success that I am still walking at all. I look at the moon and try to send all that's in my heart and mind, wondering if you can hear me, feel me.. *sigh. Can't backstep, just have to keep moving forward.