Dear R (My online friend of 5+ years who I heavily crush)
Dear R, (as I type this with heavy tears)
You're beautiful. Ever since we met online... 5+ years ago ..you have been gentle and patient with me. While I was going through a difficult time. I'd go through these phases and meeting different kinds of people that would make or break me. I'd post statuses and you check up on me.
I remember telling you how much I loved playing this online game but it was hard for me to pick it up... because my Ex introduced it to me. The Ex who cheated on my with my best friend and they manipulated our social circles. You'd hop on and help me with the quests. Always telling me information that I never knew and it made me love the game so much more.
You asked me to play the game with you whenever you got a chance. It made me smile. You don't know how much you saved me. From playing a game that I love, by myself. I always felt like I belonged/connected when you was around and you didn't even know how much I appreciate you. I know you don't talk a lot or lack confidence but I love you. No matter how different we are.
Years fly by, I'm still telling you that I crush/love you. I fell for your soul and personality if that makes sense? You care about people. You express your passions no matter if anyone tells you different or thinks of you as odd. You love your friends so much that it makes me have hope that there is someone out there for me. Who is just like you. But it's not you and that is what makes my heart crumble.
Someday another woman will love you, but it not gonna be me. That is what hurts. I wish I can be everything and more. If I could live locally and maybe be given a chance.
I know we plan to meet someday. I look forward to the day we meet in real life. ♡ But honestly, it'll be hard for me not to fall for you. All over again.
You're beautiful. Ever since we met online... 5+ years ago ..you have been gentle and patient with me. While I was going through a difficult time. I'd go through these phases and meeting different kinds of people that would make or break me. I'd post statuses and you check up on me.
I remember telling you how much I loved playing this online game but it was hard for me to pick it up... because my Ex introduced it to me. The Ex who cheated on my with my best friend and they manipulated our social circles. You'd hop on and help me with the quests. Always telling me information that I never knew and it made me love the game so much more.
You asked me to play the game with you whenever you got a chance. It made me smile. You don't know how much you saved me. From playing a game that I love, by myself. I always felt like I belonged/connected when you was around and you didn't even know how much I appreciate you. I know you don't talk a lot or lack confidence but I love you. No matter how different we are.
Years fly by, I'm still telling you that I crush/love you. I fell for your soul and personality if that makes sense? You care about people. You express your passions no matter if anyone tells you different or thinks of you as odd. You love your friends so much that it makes me have hope that there is someone out there for me. Who is just like you. But it's not you and that is what makes my heart crumble.
Someday another woman will love you, but it not gonna be me. That is what hurts. I wish I can be everything and more. If I could live locally and maybe be given a chance.
I know we plan to meet someday. I look forward to the day we meet in real life. ♡ But honestly, it'll be hard for me not to fall for you. All over again.
