I Am Trying to Change My Life
I've had a rough couple of months as of late. Nothing really terrible happened, just kinda of fallen out of a really good positive productive state I was in prior to my relocation 10 months back. I went from stable job and income to literally falling into debt and now fighting up hill against maxed out credit and student loans in addition to costs of moving still. I went from eating healthy and losing weight to ballooning by about 30 lbs. I've went from loving myself and accepting it's okay to be single to returning into a state of desire to be part of someone else's life. I'm a mental spiritual and physical mess and it's hard looking back seeing how far south I let things go. Depression is something I'm constantly fighting against and the stresses of relocation and a new job and location are both mounting and changing as I get adjusted to life here. I want to get back to where I was, no better than that! I want to like myself for my own reasons and still fit together into someone else's life(and them into mine). I want to aspire to improve with someone not desire to just be with someone. I want the physique I never had not just the "best shape" I've ever had. And most of all I want the financial stability I felt I had. Before I moved but I want it here where I am now! I want to feel at ease here and at work and still love my life and job.
Am I asking for too much if I even say I want all that before 2017??
Am I asking for too much if I even say I want all that before 2017??