This is whom I want to resemble by the next year :
As mentioned, the one thing I'd wish to eliminate from life is my sense of "Touch" or to "Feel" because I don't deserve to feel good and I definitely don't deserve to feel Pain, as Pain causes my Cowardice.
The look of my Face does not attract anyone, as I am a Monster. I'd rather be disfigured than ugly. It gives me more confidence to look at myself falling apart and happy, than in one piece and sad.