I Am Not Well
I am not well. I feel like I'm undergoing a psychological transformation. I can feel it, yet not sure exactly what is going on, but it's not good. A metamorphosis is taking place and partly in an unconscious level. I've only become more and more depress and more and more restless. The other day at the bookstore, I was in so much psychical pain that I started to make some repetitive physical motions. It attracted some stares from people.
I've been looking at my life, constantly rehashing certain periods of my life especially the bad ones. I keep going back and sometimes reliving it, sometimes looking at it one way repeatedly, sometimes looking at it differently and the more I do so the more I get very sad. The more I see how degrading my life is, and this feeling just grows and grows.
I've been looking at my life, constantly rehashing certain periods of my life especially the bad ones. I keep going back and sometimes reliving it, sometimes looking at it one way repeatedly, sometimes looking at it differently and the more I do so the more I get very sad. The more I see how degrading my life is, and this feeling just grows and grows.
41-45, M
