I Have Cut Myself Before

I was on a journey to self-improvement. I'd been studying books, reading online articles, exercising, eating a proper diet, working hard, and growing my social life. But human beings are not perfect and I couldn't accept that. I fell hard and cut myself because of it. I don't want to struggle anymore. I'm sick of it. My failure and problems disgust me.

Since I can't afford therapy, I've been studying and practicing self-help; and I've been reflecting and meditating. I need to keep going. No matter how many times I fall, I need to keep going.