I Battle With Weight Issues

Just had a very depressing experience. I weighed myself and found I am at an all time weight high of 243.6 lbs.

It's my third day of turning my life around and getting a grip on a healthy diet with regular fresh air and exercise.

I waited a few days to weigh myself because I knew I would never get started if I knew how bad things were. Seeing a number like that, an all time high weight for me, is very depressing.

I am feeling down, trying to fight the feeling of being in a hopeless battle. Getting used to eating fresh vegetables, simple foods that I know are better for me. I am on an eating plan (a combination of Nutrisystem food and my own, about 1200--1400 calories a day) that I believe I can follow for the rest of my life. I've analyzed what put on the weight this last winter (emotional eating, dislocated by multiple moves, illnesses, leg injury) and I think I've come up with a plan to do better. But right now, I feel like a fat hopeless chunk of fat.

Any encouragement would be appreciated here. I'll consider deleting any negative comments; they'd be redundant because I am already angry at myself for letting this happen.