I Am Afraid of the Future

This has all become too much for me. All I want to do is act. That's all. I hate that I live in a world that is against my wish. That will not do anything to make my dream come true and that I am not surrounded by people who will help me make it happen. I am graduating in a few months. It's approaching sooner and sooner. I have nothing set up for me. I am scared everyday that my dream will never come true. That I will have to settle for jobs that I do not want to do in order to secure the root of all evil- money. I know you need money to live but I don't want to choose a style that I'm not comfortable with in order to secure it. Life is really short and I don't want to regret anything going down the road of adulthood. I'm just really scared and there's no one that anyone can say to make me feel better. I'm the only one in my family who is going into the field of entertainment. The only advice that I have gotten is from my mom who says that things will get better but that doesn't help me. No one knows if things will get better for me. Since I can remember more failures than triumphs in my life, I'm worried that after graduation, the only thing that will await me is more failures and no triumphs. The world seems too expensive when I see what my parents go through now. None of them look happy in their jobs. I don't want to go into another field but I'm scared that the field I desire for is not going to desire me back and it worries me. I don't want a new dream. I want to keep the same one.