I Would Like to See What My Future Holds

Just a small glimpse would be enough for me. Often at times im stuck with a feeling if emptiness and dread over my future. I believe that I wont do so well in the future. But if I saw that things were ok in the future that would simply be enough for me. Maybe even enough to motivate me to do more. But that is merely hopeful thinking. Im just one of those people not meant for this world. I dont want to work till im wrinkly and my body decayed. Seeing the world or doing something interesting once a year when my vacation days are saved up. I wish I was as simplistic as my other teenage counter parts. Naive and dumbed down. I wish I could spend my days obsessing over stupid shit just so I have something to look forward to. I am not happy about my situation. But who is these days...