I Wonder What Could Have Been If I Had Made Different Choices

I guess it's like the butterfly effect, one outcome could change multiple ones..that'd be sweet.. I mean I want to keep certain aspects.. but overall I'd toss this out and start a new ...Wondering never has done much good.. I'd steal baby me and run for the hills.. FAR FAR FAR from this place ...that's for sure.. I would of atleast ended up intact as a person .. not so empty