I Wince At Some Of The Stuff I Did In My Past
I certainly do, but you know what else makes me cringe inside a little? Reading through some of my old posts from EP.
I joined EP during the summer of 2010. I was 16 years old and I was severely depressed. While I still have my moments from time to time, it fazes me to see just how much everything made me want to kill myself back then. I had no resilience. But alas, my oldest posts are 8 years old now and I have changed a lot to where a lot of my posts no longer reflect who I am anymore. They reflect who I used to be, but not who I currently am right now. Sure, some things remained the same, but in a lot of ways, I couldn't be any more different now from the girl I used to be during my first few years on EP. I suppose that's one of the reasons I am reluctant to delete the posts that make me cringe. As much as they embarrass me now and make me realize how pathetic I used to be, it's also a testament to me of how far I have come along, especially when I reread old stories of mine that I cannot relate to anymore, just because they no longer apply to me.
I joined EP during the summer of 2010. I was 16 years old and I was severely depressed. While I still have my moments from time to time, it fazes me to see just how much everything made me want to kill myself back then. I had no resilience. But alas, my oldest posts are 8 years old now and I have changed a lot to where a lot of my posts no longer reflect who I am anymore. They reflect who I used to be, but not who I currently am right now. Sure, some things remained the same, but in a lot of ways, I couldn't be any more different now from the girl I used to be during my first few years on EP. I suppose that's one of the reasons I am reluctant to delete the posts that make me cringe. As much as they embarrass me now and make me realize how pathetic I used to be, it's also a testament to me of how far I have come along, especially when I reread old stories of mine that I cannot relate to anymore, just because they no longer apply to me.
