I Want To Escape From My Life
I Wish It Was Easy To Escape From Life... I am trapped in a life-gone-wrong dystopia. I have no friends left (have spent much of my adult life friendless), no family apart from my mother (she has been the only truly decent person in my life) and no life to speak of. Unfortunately, escaping from one's life is easier said than done. I constantly daydream about a life where I am just a regular person, but then at some point I have to return to reality. I am now in my late 30's, and it comes to the point where I know that I am not getting any younger...and not only am I aware that things aren't going to get better, I am painfully aware that they will only get worse.
I just want to opt out from life...if only there were somewhere I could go. I want to escape somewhere where I could experience happiness again, where I could find true love, where I had something to look forward to...where I had something to live for. I fantasise about escaping as if it was as easy as walking into an office, and just saying "I want out", then signing a few forms of consent. And then that's it - no more sorrow, no more anxieties, no more disappointments, no more loneliness (actually, doesn't this sound a lot like checking in to a Dignitas clinic?).
Why does it have to be so damn impossible to escape from such a pointless life???
I just want to opt out from life...if only there were somewhere I could go. I want to escape somewhere where I could experience happiness again, where I could find true love, where I had something to look forward to...where I had something to live for. I fantasise about escaping as if it was as easy as walking into an office, and just saying "I want out", then signing a few forms of consent. And then that's it - no more sorrow, no more anxieties, no more disappointments, no more loneliness (actually, doesn't this sound a lot like checking in to a Dignitas clinic?).
Why does it have to be so damn impossible to escape from such a pointless life???
