I Keep Myself Distracted So I Don't Feel
Another night I lay awake.
Hearing nothing but fan blades as they rotate.
Same scene, different date. It's like I'm always on repeat.
Instead of ever progressing to the next chapter of my life, I just relive history.
The harder I try to break this pattern, just seems to weave it back together even tighter.
Overcoming so many trials, pushing past my comfort zone, letting people get close just yet in the end I always lose my smile.
Because some unseen force just reaches its malevolent hands onto anything I ever have. Ripping it from my grasp throwing my spirit back to where I now lay.
Alone and feeling helpless, wanting to be erased. A part of my soul wishes that I could finally wake up to a brand new day.
One where I finally find where I'm supposed to be.
Hearing nothing but fan blades as they rotate.
Same scene, different date. It's like I'm always on repeat.
Instead of ever progressing to the next chapter of my life, I just relive history.
The harder I try to break this pattern, just seems to weave it back together even tighter.
Overcoming so many trials, pushing past my comfort zone, letting people get close just yet in the end I always lose my smile.
Because some unseen force just reaches its malevolent hands onto anything I ever have. Ripping it from my grasp throwing my spirit back to where I now lay.
Alone and feeling helpless, wanting to be erased. A part of my soul wishes that I could finally wake up to a brand new day.
One where I finally find where I'm supposed to be.
31-35, M
