I Am Not Who I Was But I Am Who I Am

I genuinely have movies inspired by my life for all to see which are truly God watching over me and seeing into my heart...You are the light of the world a city built on a hill cannot be hidden. My nature comes to light for all to see...you don't have to believe me it is in fact part of my schizo affective disorder....anyways long story short...its always romantic towards other men other than my own husband. And I recognized that that's just who I am its always been my nature to be a romantic....no I am not having a love affair against my husband but in my reality every man I meet is a little romantic love affair weather I act upon it or not that's just my heart that is just my true nature! Yes I respect my marriage and that of other men....but I don't know how to only show brotherly love because that is my brotherly love. Its just that people cast stones at me because my movies are romantic. And I've tried to change but I desire affection from people I care about.