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I Have Body Dysmorphia

Lately, I feel like my thoughts are unwillingly constantly plagued by thoughts of disgust, shame and self hatred. I feel so hideous. There's nothing good about me and it's only ever getting worse. Adding on the pounds and too f***ing stupid or lazy to do anything. Just comfort eat some more. No one would actually want me. It's all pretend. Anyone who ever compliments me is lying to prevent hurting me but I know the truth. I don't want this body. I don't want it.

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MartinTheFirst · 22-25, M

Usually people say the same thing as you just said but then admit the objective truth like "nah im just saying that cuz i want to feel sorry for myself" and this helps them to get out of that mindset.

How about you.

PandorasBox · 31-35, F

@MartinTheFirst that's an interesting concept. In my case, I don't think it is. I don't feel sorry for myself in anyway. It's not a pity party. Its more anger and hatred. The only reason I'm expressing on here is cause my other forms of outlet are destructive.

MartinTheFirst · 22-25, M

@PandorasBox But even being angry can feel good in a sense, like you have something under control, or gives you a better sense of value since [i]at least[/i] you punish yourself for being "bad"

Kind of like the albino murderer who whips himself after murdering in the Davinci Code
He lowkey justifies his murdering that way