I Am Reflecting On My Life
Sitting here oh about 1:30 in the morning. Knowing I have to get up in a couple of hours to take the kids back to school, well it has me a little unsleepy. Another summer has come to past here, and with it the start of a new school year. I can't help to think how did it move so fast? It seems like we really did not do much. I have been pretty busy with school myself this summer. The kids well they enjoyed their time in, but was it really enough? Could I have done more? I mean yeah it is summer break but isn't that the time when families are suppose to go and do fun things?
I think this start of the new school year is hitting me a little bit harder than normal due to all of the other changes that I have going on right now. My oldest kids now off starting their lives in the world. Yet, when I look at them, I to wonder did I do right by them? I was good enough for them? I look back and think there are so many things I would change, that now I look to make those same changes with my younger ones. But still, that does not ease the guilt I feel, of not being around them as much as I should. To much work and to much me personal events that needed to be dealt with well, think a lot of could of been handled a different way. Hmm I am sure there is more I can write but now I am feeling the effects that my body is telling me. Time to lay your head down and get a few hours of sleep, for tomorrow starts another day in which there will be more to ponder.