I Feel Defeated

Am. I really not capable of more then i am doing? I have traveled this road before, The day is no longer a challenge for ne, I face boredom and feelings of defeat, She has my job , she's living my life. She has what i worked so hard for. This Journey that i am on has many bumps in the road, days of tears and loneliness. Will my nightmare ever end? Will i ever be at peace with my fate?