I Am Afraid Of Losing A Friend

I have a fear that the people I start to care about will eventually leave me or I’ll lose them, ending our association before we develop a friendship. This can happen. If it happens, I can cope with it by continuing to live my life before I ever met them. I’ll have time for myself again, for my hobbies. I’m afraid to lose them or for our association to not work out because I think that I won’t have the same connection I have with them, with someone else or anyone else, that they’re the only ones I can connect with. It’s heartbreaking, sad, disappointing, and/or painful to part ways with people you got to know so well and like. Not everyone will hurt me. If some people hurt me, I can cope with it by telling them that I didn’t like what they did or said. The friendship I want is one where we don’t need anything from each other. We can talk or hang out when both of us agree. We don’t have to talk or hang out every day. We don’t expect anything from the other because we have our own ways of being happy. If they take a long time or miss a day to reply to my message, it doesn’t mean that the association is over. They may be busy or forget to reply. If they talk or hang out with you, it means they like talking or hanging out with you. You don’t need reassurances that the association is working out. You can get over them if they leave you or you lose them. They can’t make me happy. Our association can’t make me happy. I like our association because I like talking or hanging out with them. They can end our association because they don’t like talking or hanging out with me. That’s okay. We didn’t fit or match. We both deserve people who fit or match us.

Update: I'll be okay without them because I was okay before I met them.