I Hate Being Broke

Never Been Rich... I've never been flush with money and usually lived paycheck to paycheck, but I really hate when you are so hard up that your friends feel the need to send you money. Don't get me wrong, I really appreciate my friends who'll put some money on this bad bet. I just hate the need for it. I have my limitations and I'm not perfect, but in the past, I've always defined myself partly on my job. Now it didn't matter whether I was unloading trucks at a Toys'R Us during Christmas (Now that's a fun job :-) ) or helping design software for an engineering firm, part of who I am was wrapped in that job title & experience. By being unemployed, when I know I can do the jobs I apply for and then to either be ignored or even have an interview and then be treated as if you are unnecessary hurts.
I am perfectly able bodied, I can lift up to 50 lbs well enough, I can type 30 wpm accurately, I can repair/setup/administrate computers/networks/printers, I can write small programs/databa<x>ses (I'll admit some of my knowledge is old, but I can learn), I can still unload a truck with the best of them, I can work at heights since they don't bother me in the least, I can clerk/cashier & I'm not afraid of robbery because after my 12 yr experience I know now how to deal with cracked out or methed up people, I can work at any kind of library since I can remember a lot of what I read and how to retrieve information, I am a master at research, and I am even willing to walk 12 miles each way to get to the job site rain/shine/snow.
But at the moment, I'm just unemployed with a bit of cash in the pocket. Typical for my life.