Oh gods, help!
So, does anyone else need more love than what they have been getting, more togetherness? At the level of the individual, the family, school and work, and society at large I need things to be different, to have more cooperation, communication, attachment, and less focus on individiualism, taking stuff and money for oneself, moving around, and atomization.. For me school was an impediment by and large and a place apparently meant to cause fear and pain, to terrify one into silent submission, to abuse one (generally just emotionally) in isolation. Also the messages that came through the media, especially in tv and movies were by and large detrimental, especially in the in the 80's.
I wonder if early in grade school I had acknowledged that I was wrong. apologized, and asked for help in learning how to behave and communicate properly what the reaction would have been. I could have done that at the potluck my parents had in the fall of 1979 but it did not occur to me too. Well, I have lived life largely wrong, I am sorry, and I am asking for desparately needed help. I never learned how to cope practically or socially and just about can't manage on my own. I wish I had come clean this way 40 to 45 years ago and gotten help then. That would have made things so much better for me, family, girls who wanted to be my girlfriends too.
I wonder if early in grade school I had acknowledged that I was wrong. apologized, and asked for help in learning how to behave and communicate properly what the reaction would have been. I could have done that at the potluck my parents had in the fall of 1979 but it did not occur to me too. Well, I have lived life largely wrong, I am sorry, and I am asking for desparately needed help. I never learned how to cope practically or socially and just about can't manage on my own. I wish I had come clean this way 40 to 45 years ago and gotten help then. That would have made things so much better for me, family, girls who wanted to be my girlfriends too.
51-55, M
