I Struggle With Apathy
Sometimes I let myself drift into a sort of apathy for the world. At a loss, I withdraw from most things and fold into myself. It doesn't feel better, but it keeps what's inside me where it should be an no one notices that I go through these periods.
I've come out of one of these episodes yesterday. It lasted almost three weeks. I always look back and wonder why I'm helpless to stop it, why I can't just snap out of it and take charge of myself. Looking back, it seems like I should have been able to do more than come home every day and fall into bed with a laptop and emptiness that I try to fill with media.
They happen much less frequently now, but I still wonder if I'll ever be rid of these periods.
I've come out of one of these episodes yesterday. It lasted almost three weeks. I always look back and wonder why I'm helpless to stop it, why I can't just snap out of it and take charge of myself. Looking back, it seems like I should have been able to do more than come home every day and fall into bed with a laptop and emptiness that I try to fill with media.
They happen much less frequently now, but I still wonder if I'll ever be rid of these periods.
