I Worry About Everything

What if she doesn't feel the same?
What if she's with someone?
What if she's straight?
What if she's just playing with me?
What if my eyes are the reason we don't talk often?
What if my body isn't good enough?
Should I starve myself again?
Is it because I wear makeup?
Did she see my scars?
Will she call me a freak if I show her?
Should I show her the waterfall?
Should we try to go on an adventure?
Is it because of my hair?
Is it because of my fashion sense?
Should I stop wearing perfume?
Should I dress 'normally'?
Am I too weird?

And lastly...

Why am I so insecure?

What if she heard me crying last night?

Why does my heart hurt so much?

She might just be doing this on purpose, there's no way this is all fake...it seems too...real, you know, reader?

I hope the stars help me figure out all this drama...

I'm...just hurting right now...I think. Don't worry about me reader, I'll just be at the waterfall...