I Think It's All Over

So finally after so long when we both started talking a bit again well I always felt how we were gonna drift apart but in just 6 months well that's new :p guess the world is a heartless place but yes I missed her a lot in these months but now when I was alone in a dark place holding so much spin of a broken heart I came to know she made a new boyfriend and then well let's just say I'm lucky and I don't know how I'm still alive I thought I'm gonna die that day the phantom pain just kept on increasing and that day I thought death was easier and much peaceful than life the world that day felt bland bleak and dark it was late in the night:p but anyways that night was the worst the little old me that was left well he died too and the old me is now lost in a desert forever with nothing but the heating pain of the sun that shines upon him and burns him alive and I'm sure now that me will never come back because the heart which was broken now doesn't exist it got destroyed and now I feel emotionless blank and I just try and distract myself hell I can't even watch a movie without getting distracted in between just drowning in music and playing games is what I feel helps me express what I feel when I listen to paradise by coldplay I always imagines of a place where we both could be happy together but now my paradise is burning in the phantom pain that lives inside me slowly killing me from the inside and now everything just feels over and done for. What can I do well let's just say there's nothing I can do to heal me distance forced us to drift away hell I haven't seen her in 1 year and just 1 phone call in these 6 months in which she said she doesn't know how but I gotta move on I mean great seriously that's like the best suggestion ever :p what didn't I think of that :| if it was so simple I would've fuc*king done it myself right I wouldn't have asked for her help and then she said she can't deal with this well OK now when I express once she says she can't deal with this and that it was useless and a waste of my time well 6 years a waste I'm so happy to hear that:) well now that night I saw my life burn in front of me and I saw the flames of pain that rose from the empty space where my heart resided and I knew this phantom pain. will never end and it'll just be there in me reminding me of the stupidities I did to keep this going to keep this friendship together :( now its all over gone finished and there's nothing I can do but stare into the sky and see that once the face I imagines in the moon is now gone forever