I Just Want to Be With Him

I had a plan and knew what I was going to do, now I don't know what I am going to do with it. part of me wants to to with the plan I had and leave, and part of me wants to keep trying and make whatever this is work and see if more happens, that maybe soon, it'll go back to the way it was. But I highly doubt that. He wants it different and apparently to stay the way it is, whatever it is, but the other day, I was just so happy and it felt like the way it was, and that he really did love me. It was painful though too. And I cried, because I knew it was only going to be temporary, and that things were just going to be the way they have been the next day. I just wanted to stay in that moment forever and be happy and feel loved. I just want to be with him. I have tried to not think about him and talk to other people when I know that I am just annoying him and being stupid, but I can't. They aren't him. Why does this have to be so hard? Supposedly he wants to be with me and I want to be with him, then why can't we just be together? Why?