I Have No Idea What I Want to Do With My Life

No Clue...... I never have known what I've wanted to do with my life. I am going to be 21 and have spend most of my young life depressed and terrified. Familiar story, of course. I've seen people who lack direction in life have common mental illnesses or feelings. I have anxiety, ultimately hate homework and have flunked college, and I don't know where to go. I have a dead end job as a lunch lady in a high school, but I cannot do this forever. I have an interest in writing and music. To be honest that's all I really know anything about. I am blonde, and cannot multi task. I feel dumb at times and this is not helping motivate me at all. Honestly I'm suprised I got this job. I have come a long way from where I was my second senior year in high school, but now it feels like I'm not going to go any farther, I'm stuck on paus. People keep telling me what I should do, and how I need to live my life, but I'm scared. Scared of what? Who knows, but without a little nudge to give me a hint of what I should do with my life, I just think I'll be at the same place in 10 years as I am now.