I Dont Fit In
I didn't fit in I have been the outcast ever since I was a kid. The other kids never talked to me some even bullied me called me names said I was nothing and would be better off gone. those kid years turned to teen Years and it only got worse. I had no friends and I would always sit by myself people didn't care. Soon after I abandoned my desire to fit in because I saw and still view people as something to not fit in their not worthy. Years passed and I'm still alone no friends and I rarely talk to family all they do is judge me.
Of just reached the point were I don't care about anything where I'm used to feeling disappointed and depressed I welcomed it in. I just put it the way I see it. Theres no point trying to fit into a botched society. people despise me because I chose not to follow them like a mindless drone but chose to act and do on my own free will. Thats why I'm alone now and it's why I'll always be alone. People just aren't ready to understand me and those certain few who would sit their and promise to always be there for me would forget I even existed it's happened too many times. I've had to cope with my depression on my own nobody understood what I was going through. And I'm beyond seeking help at this point. I know this is long but it has to be said. I've lost nerely everything and I am just unfazed by it. To be honest I don't even know how to feel anymore so I just shut myself away from the world in isolation and solitude since thats where I apparently belong.
Of just reached the point were I don't care about anything where I'm used to feeling disappointed and depressed I welcomed it in. I just put it the way I see it. Theres no point trying to fit into a botched society. people despise me because I chose not to follow them like a mindless drone but chose to act and do on my own free will. Thats why I'm alone now and it's why I'll always be alone. People just aren't ready to understand me and those certain few who would sit their and promise to always be there for me would forget I even existed it's happened too many times. I've had to cope with my depression on my own nobody understood what I was going through. And I'm beyond seeking help at this point. I know this is long but it has to be said. I've lost nerely everything and I am just unfazed by it. To be honest I don't even know how to feel anymore so I just shut myself away from the world in isolation and solitude since thats where I apparently belong.
26-30, M
