I'm upset & should validate my feelings but I can't
So I was in this group (5people) working on an event, I was doing extremely my best and I was very effective (in the results) and also I kinda of took the leadership without really making it show (reminding them of things, giving them a vision when they can't see straight, being creative, encouraging them endlessly..etc) I also kinda neglected my health in the process cause I was very engaged and I almost spent 90% of my time on it (yeah, that's crazy of me).
Now one day before the release the supervisor gave us the rate: 9/10. Kinda good right? I should feel great. But I don't. Here's why:
## She gave compliments to all of us, which is good, but I felt that mine was on a lower level: she said that one was "I love your wisdom and your patience, u really r mature <3", the other was "Very smart and really loved your ideas <3" another "very hardworking <3 bravooo for that" another "very professional and serious,THANK U <3". What I got is : "good energy, keep it that way."
---> that is exactly what she said verbatim.
.
.
I don't know why it hit me hard and I feel childish desperate for compliments and silly for commiting so much to it and frankly my ego is broken. I feel like I wasn't doing it for myself so I also feel decieved by myself.
I want compliments so much right now cause I'm upset, does it make me selfish? *sigh*
Now one day before the release the supervisor gave us the rate: 9/10. Kinda good right? I should feel great. But I don't. Here's why:
## She gave compliments to all of us, which is good, but I felt that mine was on a lower level: she said that one was "I love your wisdom and your patience, u really r mature <3", the other was "Very smart and really loved your ideas <3" another "very hardworking <3 bravooo for that" another "very professional and serious,THANK U <3". What I got is : "good energy, keep it that way."
---> that is exactly what she said verbatim.
.
.
I don't know why it hit me hard and I feel childish desperate for compliments and silly for commiting so much to it and frankly my ego is broken. I feel like I wasn't doing it for myself so I also feel decieved by myself.
I want compliments so much right now cause I'm upset, does it make me selfish? *sigh*
26-30, F