I Want To Get Really Fat

I'm considering finally giving into my desire to become obese, now that I'm finally living on my own. The only real problems I have are the fact that 1) I don't think it's humanly possible, certainly not healthy for me to get as fat as I fantasize about, and 2) I have never actually met a real female fat admirer in real life. I feel like they're extremely rare, and most of the girls on here seem to be fake profiles. I'm not sure about committing to gaining that much weight without having someone to share the experience with. :/