I Feel Lost And Alone

I'm happy that I'm becoming more like the girl I always dreamed of being in my teenage years, but sometimes I would feel this way.. I would think about how some people that promised to be there just left. And my family doesn't fully understand me, especially after my dad left. So sometimes I would even do 'bad things' with a guy to feel better, and I don't know if it messes with someone's head to make them wanta stay with the one they done that with, cause some end up stop texting me which makes me wonder if I'm just not whatever enough.. Even how in highschool there were kids that picked on me cause they thought I was some homosexual, so I would ditch class cause I just wanted to be seen as a girl, and security guards that also picked on me convinced the principal to kick me out of school.. And I think about how some girls I idolize that makes me smile also all have similar cheerful, friendly, and wild yet can be seen as weird personalities.. But the difference they have that I don't seem to have is someone who is always there, who's always a best friend that always supports you, and wants you to be happy. And and I would feel nervous around crowds cause I would hear tiny voices talking about me.. You know, I feel so confused sometimes, like how do I know where to go? What to do?

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urbancowboy · M

Well you came to the right place, there are a lot of supportive individuals who are here for the same reason as. A friend who can love you unconditionally and catch you when you fall. Who knows perhaps that person is here and you may not know it yet

greenmountaingal · 70-79, F

If you are this confused, then we here probably won't know what you can do either.

However, since you seem underconfident, and since you are obviously worried, I can recommend two very good books about overcoming social anxiety and worrying. These books need to be read, and then practiced, a little at a time. You take one chapter at a time and practice the skill taught in that chapter, maybe for weeks or even months, until you get good at them. Practicing even one of these skills can only help you.

[i]How To Stop Worrying and Start Living[/i]

[i]How To Win Friends and Influence People [/i]

Both books are by Dale Carnegie.

Reading and practicing these skills will change your life for the better.

Neiromatheous · 31-35, M

I think I know how you feel, maybe not entirely but a little, it feels almost like you are lost in a forest. You can hear and see people but you might as well be invisible, and the times they notice you it is to let out their cruelty. At least that is what it was for me. I used the act of creation to help me deal with it and it helped outlet some of the confusion and anger I felt. Art, mechanics, wood working, metal craft, electronics, anything really and I would create anything that came to mind. Perhaps you could use similar methods to outlet your feelings until you have found a solution to your problems.

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