I Love Him So Much It Hurts
We have been together for 18 months by now and I love you so much. I miss you so when I am not with you, I am supposed to be with you and it is empty when we are not together. I want to move in with you, start a life with you. But. Before that I have to leave you for a year.
It is 5 months left now and it already hurts. I just hug him as hard as I can and think about the hours before the goodbye, holding eachother knowing that this will be the last time for a long time we are together. Thinking about the moment when I have to say goodbye. Breathing in the smell of you, feeling the heat from your body and feeling the safety and homey feeling from being in your arms. Knowing you have to let go in a few moments and not being able to truly be home for another 11 months. Leaving a part of myself behind. The last kiss, hard and desperate on the lips. Feeling the weight of the year ahead. Saying I love you with tearfilled voice. Holding hands while taking a step back, now only fingers touching, this is the last moment. Suddenly you have turned around, with a teary face of the one thing you love the most in the world inprinted in your mind. Taking one step after another, ripping something that is a part of you away with every step you take.
It already hurts and I can't immagine the pain when this moment actually happens.
It is 5 months left now and it already hurts. I just hug him as hard as I can and think about the hours before the goodbye, holding eachother knowing that this will be the last time for a long time we are together. Thinking about the moment when I have to say goodbye. Breathing in the smell of you, feeling the heat from your body and feeling the safety and homey feeling from being in your arms. Knowing you have to let go in a few moments and not being able to truly be home for another 11 months. Leaving a part of myself behind. The last kiss, hard and desperate on the lips. Feeling the weight of the year ahead. Saying I love you with tearfilled voice. Holding hands while taking a step back, now only fingers touching, this is the last moment. Suddenly you have turned around, with a teary face of the one thing you love the most in the world inprinted in your mind. Taking one step after another, ripping something that is a part of you away with every step you take.
It already hurts and I can't immagine the pain when this moment actually happens.
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