I Am a Highly Sensitive Person
I can't stop crying or I'm always on the border of crying right now.
I do Neighborhood Watch for the area I live in and liaison with the county police strongly encouraged us leads to attend a summit on child abuse prevention. We are all about making the neighborhood and community safer so this summit would be a very educational and positive event.
So a few hours ago I'm sitting in this huge meeting hall with a large number of other people including teachers, police, members of various organizations, District Attorney's, etc. Then a female officer goes to the stage to speak. She tells how she got out of her own situation of child abuse when she was 16. Then she goes on to tell about a case she had that she said she will never forget.
I'm not going to give any of the details of what she said because I don't want it in your head either. What she talked about was a 3 year old girl found dead in the woods and the things they discovered that had been done to her by her step father and mother. I won't say more.
I had to leave. I could see my hair around face shaking as I stood up. I was overwhelmed with emotions of horror, sadness, panic, anger, terror, and more. I walked outside and stood in the sun. Tears were running down my face. I obviously was not getting over it so I went to my car. I sat there and for the most part cried silently. I decided I couldn't go back in and started driving home.
No one else had to walk out. I was told by a counselor not to watch the news or read the newspaper because of this reason. I tried blocking the story I heard from my head. I tried letting myself go ahead and let the thoughts come of what I heard. I tried letting go and letting myself cry as much as I want for a release. I'm still having trouble stopping tears from running and my nose dripping. I just feel such immense sadness it's very difficult to described. I just can't stand or tolerate what happened to that little girl. I want to scream. What is wrong with me? Why am I like this?
I do Neighborhood Watch for the area I live in and liaison with the county police strongly encouraged us leads to attend a summit on child abuse prevention. We are all about making the neighborhood and community safer so this summit would be a very educational and positive event.
So a few hours ago I'm sitting in this huge meeting hall with a large number of other people including teachers, police, members of various organizations, District Attorney's, etc. Then a female officer goes to the stage to speak. She tells how she got out of her own situation of child abuse when she was 16. Then she goes on to tell about a case she had that she said she will never forget.
I'm not going to give any of the details of what she said because I don't want it in your head either. What she talked about was a 3 year old girl found dead in the woods and the things they discovered that had been done to her by her step father and mother. I won't say more.
I had to leave. I could see my hair around face shaking as I stood up. I was overwhelmed with emotions of horror, sadness, panic, anger, terror, and more. I walked outside and stood in the sun. Tears were running down my face. I obviously was not getting over it so I went to my car. I sat there and for the most part cried silently. I decided I couldn't go back in and started driving home.
No one else had to walk out. I was told by a counselor not to watch the news or read the newspaper because of this reason. I tried blocking the story I heard from my head. I tried letting myself go ahead and let the thoughts come of what I heard. I tried letting go and letting myself cry as much as I want for a release. I'm still having trouble stopping tears from running and my nose dripping. I just feel such immense sadness it's very difficult to described. I just can't stand or tolerate what happened to that little girl. I want to scream. What is wrong with me? Why am I like this?
