I Am Moving On
7 Years Destroyed In 7 Days...... We were absolute best friends since junior high. Somewhere between us getting serious and breaking it off with our most current relationships we begin to reveal our feelings for each other. We made a mistake and got involved with each other too soon because we just didn't want to be alone. You being with the love of your life, sacrificing your relationship for love and me, being in this long term relationship with a guy I realized I was not in love with anymore. He and I were content, not comfortable. We are both guilty of leaning on each other for comfort but sir, you initiated it. However, I should not have taken your kindness out of context and visit you, unknowing of your situation.
What hurts the most is not you abandoning me everyday, treating me as an unwanted guest or even walking out on me when I needed to communicate with you the most. No, what hurts the most is that you could not be honest with me and just admit that things were not going to work out between us because you were still in love with your girlfriend and regretted letting her go. You made me believe that this issue was me when in fact I was just a victim of your demise. I'm sorry. I can't change the past, but if I could by all means I would correct everything because I will always love you, best friend. But I can't.
And as much as I want you to resign your position, and just leave now since you continue to ignore me now that we're 500+ miles apart again, I can't allow that to happen. The worst thing is when you're ready to reach out to me again-- which will be who knows when--I'm going to invite you back into my heart with open arms although you don't deserve it. You're just a boy; I wouldn't expect you to understand my logic.
What hurts the most is not you abandoning me everyday, treating me as an unwanted guest or even walking out on me when I needed to communicate with you the most. No, what hurts the most is that you could not be honest with me and just admit that things were not going to work out between us because you were still in love with your girlfriend and regretted letting her go. You made me believe that this issue was me when in fact I was just a victim of your demise. I'm sorry. I can't change the past, but if I could by all means I would correct everything because I will always love you, best friend. But I can't.
And as much as I want you to resign your position, and just leave now since you continue to ignore me now that we're 500+ miles apart again, I can't allow that to happen. The worst thing is when you're ready to reach out to me again-- which will be who knows when--I'm going to invite you back into my heart with open arms although you don't deserve it. You're just a boy; I wouldn't expect you to understand my logic.
26-30, F
