I Think I Am Just Going To Write Stuff

Over my 19 years old I had had a lot of bff's. Girls and a boy.
I fight with all the girls (i mean horrible fights, I never talked again with none), except one, she moved to Canada and we never talked again bc internet doesn't even exist in those years...
I fell in love with the boy... he was my bff ex bf but also my bff (this is a mess).
He gave me hopes, then he got a gf and thats how i lost him...
But when i fight with him i met a friend online. She was reading the same book as me so we start talking...
This were 3 years ago, we never met personally but I think she's the best thing in my life right now. She knows me better than me and i love her so much. Idk what I would do with my life without her.