I Have Lost Somone Very Important

to some who know I lost my girlfriend 4 years ago she was murdered by a drunk driver while on her way to me not knowing intended to prepose to her the plan was to propose and marry when I got older. She had a necklace she always wore said it was her favorite since finding it I have worn it as a reminder of what I lost and as a testament to the love we've had and I haven't taken it off since not for anything it's always around my neck. I don't expect people here to understand but know that I am a broken man just trying to live life even if sometimes I don't want to I've lost. I couldn't save her so I try to save others who are ever in trouble.