I Loved Someone That Didn't Love Me
I'm surprised I managed to love at all. I'm a very closed off person so I never expect it when anyone else gets through to me. More than one person has, but the person I fell in love with was empathetic and hilarious and strong when I really needed someone.
I started to trust that person little by little. Too bad it wasn't reciprocated. I could see past some of the guards that were put up and I mentioned them on more than one occasion. It was no more than what was done to me, so it's only fair.
Or maybe not. They would withdraw a bit more each time, so I started to back off some. I didn't want to chase them off by getting too close. I backed off so much, I was eventually completely on the outside. Someone else came along and crashed through those walls quickly and completely and they fell in love.
It made me realize that that's how it had been for me too. Who I loved had crashed into my life and I fell. They fell for the one who crashed into their life.
It's interesting to think about it. You have to charge head on mumbo jumbo. I don't have the courage to do that. I'm glad for the feeling though and grateful for being able to drop some of the walls, keep them down after they were crashed through. It helps. I don't need to keep anyone behind the remaining walls with me though.
I started to trust that person little by little. Too bad it wasn't reciprocated. I could see past some of the guards that were put up and I mentioned them on more than one occasion. It was no more than what was done to me, so it's only fair.
Or maybe not. They would withdraw a bit more each time, so I started to back off some. I didn't want to chase them off by getting too close. I backed off so much, I was eventually completely on the outside. Someone else came along and crashed through those walls quickly and completely and they fell in love.
It made me realize that that's how it had been for me too. Who I loved had crashed into my life and I fell. They fell for the one who crashed into their life.
It's interesting to think about it. You have to charge head on mumbo jumbo. I don't have the courage to do that. I'm glad for the feeling though and grateful for being able to drop some of the walls, keep them down after they were crashed through. It helps. I don't need to keep anyone behind the remaining walls with me though.
