Awakening in Deep sleep
To continue last story... Part 2
My mind being able to pick up "unexpressed" thoughts of my friends sent ripples in my subconscious brain and my attention switched to marvelling over the capabilities of mind. A fine stream of subtle thoughts started to tuck my attention away from the point of concentration. As we returned home, the depths of meditation receded and i was thinking that this could be it, i could have got these capabilities for forever and now i know how to acess them.
When we returned home it was quite late at night, i had nothing to do so i laid their, started to focus again on my breath and my chest area was filled with warmth, exxtremely blissfull, like a sun of ecstacy exploded in my heart. i could sleep for an hour or so, totally focused on my breath. Soon enough i started to drift in and out of sleep, as i wud become mildly aware i found my mind meditating.
At some point i dozed off into deep sleep and next thing i know...
BAM! Im awake, i openned my eyes, fully aware, but what i see that its not my room.. Wait a min,,, how could this be possible, as i stared at the curtain hanging on my left side right above my head coverin a side slab (dimly lit night, moon light coming from the wide open door), i immediately recognized that this is the room of a house we used to live at when i was younger some 7-8 years back. Everything was same, same bed, same side room and same front open area.. but how is this possible, im wide awake, i didn remembr going to sleep here!, suddenly childhood fear of "some ghost in the side room" hit me like i was not grown up person anymore. The same fear i used to grapple with at times when i used to stay in that place.
My heart started pounding and i realized a presence approaching me very quickly from the side room, and i was panicking with full blown breathlessness and i wanted to get up and run away from the place, but i realized i couldnt get up like someone was sitting my on stomach and now the fear was at its peak and it felt like the entity is sitting on me
and next instant i "woke up" again, in my hostel room, totally confused, just felt like i got transported somehow from that old childhood, to my present hostel room. I was profusely sweating and thinking whats happening to my perception of reality and what was that hyperlucid aware state. What is real?? for sure that first awakening cant be real cause that childhood place was already demolished some 3 years back. But it hardly felt like a dream! I was pretty sure there was no lapse of consciousness since first awakening.
It was 3o clock in the morning dot. I started searching internet as to what was happening. Unable to sleep for the rest of the night, fearful, overhwelmed, i kept researching stuff..
To be continued..
My mind being able to pick up "unexpressed" thoughts of my friends sent ripples in my subconscious brain and my attention switched to marvelling over the capabilities of mind. A fine stream of subtle thoughts started to tuck my attention away from the point of concentration. As we returned home, the depths of meditation receded and i was thinking that this could be it, i could have got these capabilities for forever and now i know how to acess them.
When we returned home it was quite late at night, i had nothing to do so i laid their, started to focus again on my breath and my chest area was filled with warmth, exxtremely blissfull, like a sun of ecstacy exploded in my heart. i could sleep for an hour or so, totally focused on my breath. Soon enough i started to drift in and out of sleep, as i wud become mildly aware i found my mind meditating.
At some point i dozed off into deep sleep and next thing i know...
BAM! Im awake, i openned my eyes, fully aware, but what i see that its not my room.. Wait a min,,, how could this be possible, as i stared at the curtain hanging on my left side right above my head coverin a side slab (dimly lit night, moon light coming from the wide open door), i immediately recognized that this is the room of a house we used to live at when i was younger some 7-8 years back. Everything was same, same bed, same side room and same front open area.. but how is this possible, im wide awake, i didn remembr going to sleep here!, suddenly childhood fear of "some ghost in the side room" hit me like i was not grown up person anymore. The same fear i used to grapple with at times when i used to stay in that place.
My heart started pounding and i realized a presence approaching me very quickly from the side room, and i was panicking with full blown breathlessness and i wanted to get up and run away from the place, but i realized i couldnt get up like someone was sitting my on stomach and now the fear was at its peak and it felt like the entity is sitting on me
and next instant i "woke up" again, in my hostel room, totally confused, just felt like i got transported somehow from that old childhood, to my present hostel room. I was profusely sweating and thinking whats happening to my perception of reality and what was that hyperlucid aware state. What is real?? for sure that first awakening cant be real cause that childhood place was already demolished some 3 years back. But it hardly felt like a dream! I was pretty sure there was no lapse of consciousness since first awakening.
It was 3o clock in the morning dot. I started searching internet as to what was happening. Unable to sleep for the rest of the night, fearful, overhwelmed, i kept researching stuff..
To be continued..
