I Am Fed Up With Being Taken For A Fool And Lied To

@Daneille I survived ,,and we do have a son
I still help her when she needs help though she does get a nice check every month for our son ..
If I ever loved you I dont know how to stop
But I am good at cutting people off that keep hurting me ,,and only people I care about can hurt me ,,,
So my first wife and I are friends for our kids ,so I will always be civil to her ,,
But us ever being a couple again ,,no way in hell
My first wife and husband number 4 just celebrated our youngest daughters birthday with her yesterday (38)
She and I always talk over the good time and she asks about old friends that are still alive and I stay in contact with ,,Our family sings together and she loves to be apart of that ,,we even hug each other goodbye ,,
I don't hug my sons Mom ,,,I do not want her reading anything into it ,,
She killed us bad ,,backed up and run me over again ,,
Had she went to rehab like I asked ,,I would have tried again "for our son" who is now 11,
But she chose drugs ,and moved out ,,when she had it made and no responsibility except be a good Mom ,,
now that ship has sailed ,
That is why the one I loved left me
She was tired of seeing her take advantage of me and gave me an ultimatum ,,,she has to go or she is
For our son ,,I still helped her ,,and my Baby said good bye
Like me ,,she keeps her word too
If it don't kill you ,,its makes you wiser and strong

no one deserves to be hurt

@Daneille That was my problem ,,
I hate letting people down ,even when they have kicked me to the curb ,,My sons Mom made her choice ,she loved drugs and alcohol more then our son or me
But it was not entirely her fault ,,a messed up "C" section and 5 months of wound care until I threatened a surgeon and made him clean up the wound and get rid of dead tissue so it would finally heal properly ,,I have training in wound care ,,but when I was the only one complaining ,,no one listened to me ,,she was happy ,they gave her pain pills
And she was fine until they cut them off
I am disabled ,,she began to break into my lock box and steal my meds ,,drinking on top of the pills ,,I was on methadone then ,,,and I tried to tolerate it ,,tell myself it was not her fault ,,,but 6 yrs later and she is making me suffer too ,,,
I took care of her and our son ,,and my dying Mom and helped my grown kids too
I had more on me already then I thought I could bear
And then Mom died ,,she taught our son to lie for her and everyone asking me was I blind
As much as I hated asking her to go to rehab or leave
I helped her more then Anyone in my life ever helped me
She cost me a lot ,,but we have an awesome son
And as an example for him I will always be good to his Mom ,help her anyway I can ,,but it will never be as a couple again ,,,she proved who she loved ,,and it wasn't me