I Have a College Degree (am a College Graduate)

I graduated from a community college with an Associates in Applied Science for Computer Information Technology. I was a member of Phi Theta Kappa, Student Support Services, and Women of Excellence. I had a cumulative 4.0 GPA. I was a valued Computer Science tutor. I was the only graduate to have a cumulative 4.0, it means that I never got less than an A and I was diligent in achieving that. When I found out that letter grades were recorded and not percentages is when I stopped stressing about getting 100% in everything. I hear that I made one of my instructors work harder, but it's because his expectations were not clear and I needed to be prepared for everything, otherwise I would stress out. Sometimes it seems like time ran out and I had not read the chapter before class, so I challenged myself to work harder and sleep less. I still have not gone far enough, have not worked hard enough, and I'm not sure if I've met the goal of pulling someone up to my level of diligence. Even now, after graduation.. it's been almost a week and I have not studied anything. I applied at a 4 year college.. I probably won't actually enroll, because I failed.. I don't know what I failed at, but it weighs heavy. And anyway, who do I think I am to be trying to get a bachelors? A 4.0 at a community college? WOW..(sarcasm) WHAT kind of achievement is that?