I Sometimes Can't Talk About What's Hurting Me
Why Talk When Noone Is Around To Hear It?...
What really hurts to me at least is how you can go around and meet people and do your part to be a friend and be there for people. But it always seem that its only a short lived thing. I start to get to know someone and enjoy the company and garuanteed within a short time sometime a little longer, but the day always comes that I am alone again because people either decide I'm not worth the bother, or not exciting enough or I'm not wanted or whatever it is. But regardless I am once again ignored alone and forgotten. If I'm lucky I may get a "hi" or some small talk before I'm ignored, other times my greetings are simply just left unanswered. If I decide to bring this up to someone it usually ends up being that I am either bitched at for being selfish or blown off because they had something more important or just not answered. Yet I can always make time for them. I understand that others have lives and things to do same as me, but is it too much to ask for a little time?
What really hurts to me at least is how you can go around and meet people and do your part to be a friend and be there for people. But it always seem that its only a short lived thing. I start to get to know someone and enjoy the company and garuanteed within a short time sometime a little longer, but the day always comes that I am alone again because people either decide I'm not worth the bother, or not exciting enough or I'm not wanted or whatever it is. But regardless I am once again ignored alone and forgotten. If I'm lucky I may get a "hi" or some small talk before I'm ignored, other times my greetings are simply just left unanswered. If I decide to bring this up to someone it usually ends up being that I am either bitched at for being selfish or blown off because they had something more important or just not answered. Yet I can always make time for them. I understand that others have lives and things to do same as me, but is it too much to ask for a little time?
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