I fixed my life

Although we have full control over our lives, we have no way of controlling the universe and the people around us. Ultimately, this means whilst we cannot always control the things that happen to us, we do choose how we react to it. Instead of spending time and energy WISHING things were different, that you were born into a different life and those events that happened to you didn't tear you down, be your own voice of reasoning and shape your life to how you want it.

I was stuck BELOW rock bottom, with no helping hand to pull me up, no light at the end of the tunnel and no hope for my future.Whilst I appeared happy and could be the light in my family/friends life, I had no light in me to cure my own darkness. I thought I was going to die.

It's been so long I don't even remember what caused my dramatic turning point, it was nothing significant, perhaps for some it is something that causes a big wake up call. But for me, I just found myself in a moment of despair, nothing unusual for that time in my life, and as my tears streamed down my face I took a deep breath and said out loud to myself "I am not going to cry anymore." I told myself this everyday, every time I was about to have a meltdown and somehow, it worked. I didn't cry hysterically and I stopped my emotional pain.

From this moment on I started fixing my life in each department one by one. Changed my job, fixed the relationships around me, started working out, and living the life I wanted and I have never ever looked back. My life is amazing and only gets better, it's hard to imagine there was a time I truly couldn't see my worth.