I Miss My Mom Who Passed Away
Hello everyone,
My mom passed away April 13.2017
It still hurts till today since of course I am in my mourning period.
My mom was 75 years old,I know she was elderly. Strange you may ask ask woah she had you at 40?
No, My mom adopted me at Birth but I am now realizing how I took advantage and didnt love her enough till she was gone.
So I am here to redeem myself and take all this weight of my shoulders.
My mom was kind ,beautiful,an absolute angel.
The kind of mother everyone on this planet would of wished for...I didnt see it like that at all.
The mother who would have dinner for you once you got home for school,just for you .
who would given you anything you needed anything you wanted.
The mother who give you her last cent even though she needed it.
Who wore the same clothes graciously, to make sure you had something different to wear,
Who forgave easily.Who loved more
I hurt my mother many times , Younger I used to throw stuff at her and hurt her feelings,saying mean things
God I take that back.
My mother was Perfection.
I could go on and on.
My mother got sick during the month of January, she had many ailments at her age. of course, we all knew her time would
come but not so soon.
My brother in law found her hunched over her bed and look distressed and her oxygen tube had fallen from her nose as she
foamed at the mouth.
Immediately, a group of emt surrounded my mom they had layed her down on the bed but she did not respond at all.
My mom was rushed to the closest hospital and she was later incubated.
I was relieved but no one saw the worst coming.
My mom could not breathe on her own and within week doctors got my brothers and sisters together to do a Tracheotomy.
My father died a week later from that 7 years ago so were devastated and we all came to the decision for what was best for
mom.
I cried the day of her surgery I told my mother "I love you Mom" Im sorry for everything,Forgive me" She looked at me and
mouthed don't cry ,be strong,don't cry I love you 2 .My mother had those eyes of pain at looking at me be in pain.If her
eyes could comfort ,I could stare in her eyes and fall asleep peacefully next to her.
Thank God the procedure went well and she was doing well.
My mother was strong and endured so much in her time.
Every other day my mom would respond to all of us and mouth certain words.
My sisters would come everyday and stay till the end of the day to make sure my mom was cared for and she wasnt.They
fought everyday with nurses and doctors.
They were rough with my mother and God that nurse who hurt my mom and got away with it because my mom would not tell us m
and the one time I saw a nurse suctioning the mucus from her lungs and apparently was too rough.
God is watching and since your doing your job ...as they all say may you rot in that crappy hospital.
My mom was fighting for her life .
They gave us hope.
I had been struggling to find a job and start school.
Going through issues with my daughters father.
The beginning of April I got a job and pretty good one too.
I started school and I was happy.
I was so excited to go to tell my mom, she had been doing fine and we were to send her to a rehabilitation center within
the week.
My mom would smile and her eyes would light up when she
would see me.I would be happy to see her awake and looking back
The times I would joke and she would smile with that damn tube in her mouth. I would show her pictures of my daughter,she
loved my daughter more than me. Let me tell you my family despised th e love my mom had for me alone but the love for my
daughter was nothing compared to me.
It got harder and painful for her to speak once she got the tracheotomy.
One day in March I walked in and my mom had finally opened her eyes and i asked ..do you know who i am?
she mouthed no i dont know but responded to other questions such as if we asked if she was in pain .
I looked at my sister and we got her doctor.
The doctor said her brain waves were fine.
This when I knew my mother was giving up ,
Her eyes wouldn't light up ,she would look away if I showed her pictures, if i would start a conversation she would ask
for medication.My mom forgot who I was.
My mom would stare and close her ees throughout the day my sister cried to me once about it,saying she had a blank stare and was scared mom was giving up...That was because she was.
That hit me hard because my mother loved me more than her birth children, My mom was gone mentally
I got a call that my mom was getting worse and it was becoming life threatening , My family came that night and we stood till morning.I went home around 4am I was so exhausted. My mom would not open her eyes at all .
I stared, and had nothing to say..The next day my sister got me up and said to give my daughter to her dad and to rush to the hospital..20 mins later my brother in law received a call from my sister and as his wife entered the room he told me my mom had passed.He told me to not sAY ANYTHNNG to my other sister till we get to the hospital so if anything she could receive medical help since she suffers from her heart. I rushed to the hospital and cried as i passed security ,going up on the elevator,My mom room was at the end of the hall.door wide open..I ran and when i got there,There she layed .her body lifeless pale.I dropped to the ground and my family picked me up and there I Cried that the whole floor heard my screams as I hugged her.I stood there till it was time for them to take her and I was the last to leave.I Broke down again in front of the waiting area and my sister kneeled there holding me as we cried ..Everyone was in the waiting room sitting and staring. No one in that room will ever know the love my mom had given me but me. They would never know.
My mom soul can rest now from the pain she endured and the shit she got from the nurses at that demented hospital. Please watch your families if they're ever emitted into a hospital.
My mom passed away April 13.2017
It still hurts till today since of course I am in my mourning period.
My mom was 75 years old,I know she was elderly. Strange you may ask ask woah she had you at 40?
No, My mom adopted me at Birth but I am now realizing how I took advantage and didnt love her enough till she was gone.
So I am here to redeem myself and take all this weight of my shoulders.
My mom was kind ,beautiful,an absolute angel.
The kind of mother everyone on this planet would of wished for...I didnt see it like that at all.
The mother who would have dinner for you once you got home for school,just for you .
who would given you anything you needed anything you wanted.
The mother who give you her last cent even though she needed it.
Who wore the same clothes graciously, to make sure you had something different to wear,
Who forgave easily.Who loved more
I hurt my mother many times , Younger I used to throw stuff at her and hurt her feelings,saying mean things
God I take that back.
My mother was Perfection.
I could go on and on.
My mother got sick during the month of January, she had many ailments at her age. of course, we all knew her time would
come but not so soon.
My brother in law found her hunched over her bed and look distressed and her oxygen tube had fallen from her nose as she
foamed at the mouth.
Immediately, a group of emt surrounded my mom they had layed her down on the bed but she did not respond at all.
My mom was rushed to the closest hospital and she was later incubated.
I was relieved but no one saw the worst coming.
My mom could not breathe on her own and within week doctors got my brothers and sisters together to do a Tracheotomy.
My father died a week later from that 7 years ago so were devastated and we all came to the decision for what was best for
mom.
I cried the day of her surgery I told my mother "I love you Mom" Im sorry for everything,Forgive me" She looked at me and
mouthed don't cry ,be strong,don't cry I love you 2 .My mother had those eyes of pain at looking at me be in pain.If her
eyes could comfort ,I could stare in her eyes and fall asleep peacefully next to her.
Thank God the procedure went well and she was doing well.
My mother was strong and endured so much in her time.
Every other day my mom would respond to all of us and mouth certain words.
My sisters would come everyday and stay till the end of the day to make sure my mom was cared for and she wasnt.They
fought everyday with nurses and doctors.
They were rough with my mother and God that nurse who hurt my mom and got away with it because my mom would not tell us m
and the one time I saw a nurse suctioning the mucus from her lungs and apparently was too rough.
God is watching and since your doing your job ...as they all say may you rot in that crappy hospital.
My mom was fighting for her life .
They gave us hope.
I had been struggling to find a job and start school.
Going through issues with my daughters father.
The beginning of April I got a job and pretty good one too.
I started school and I was happy.
I was so excited to go to tell my mom, she had been doing fine and we were to send her to a rehabilitation center within
the week.
My mom would smile and her eyes would light up when she
would see me.I would be happy to see her awake and looking back
The times I would joke and she would smile with that damn tube in her mouth. I would show her pictures of my daughter,she
loved my daughter more than me. Let me tell you my family despised th e love my mom had for me alone but the love for my
daughter was nothing compared to me.
It got harder and painful for her to speak once she got the tracheotomy.
One day in March I walked in and my mom had finally opened her eyes and i asked ..do you know who i am?
she mouthed no i dont know but responded to other questions such as if we asked if she was in pain .
I looked at my sister and we got her doctor.
The doctor said her brain waves were fine.
This when I knew my mother was giving up ,
Her eyes wouldn't light up ,she would look away if I showed her pictures, if i would start a conversation she would ask
for medication.My mom forgot who I was.
My mom would stare and close her ees throughout the day my sister cried to me once about it,saying she had a blank stare and was scared mom was giving up...That was because she was.
That hit me hard because my mother loved me more than her birth children, My mom was gone mentally
I got a call that my mom was getting worse and it was becoming life threatening , My family came that night and we stood till morning.I went home around 4am I was so exhausted. My mom would not open her eyes at all .
I stared, and had nothing to say..The next day my sister got me up and said to give my daughter to her dad and to rush to the hospital..20 mins later my brother in law received a call from my sister and as his wife entered the room he told me my mom had passed.He told me to not sAY ANYTHNNG to my other sister till we get to the hospital so if anything she could receive medical help since she suffers from her heart. I rushed to the hospital and cried as i passed security ,going up on the elevator,My mom room was at the end of the hall.door wide open..I ran and when i got there,There she layed .her body lifeless pale.I dropped to the ground and my family picked me up and there I Cried that the whole floor heard my screams as I hugged her.I stood there till it was time for them to take her and I was the last to leave.I Broke down again in front of the waiting area and my sister kneeled there holding me as we cried ..Everyone was in the waiting room sitting and staring. No one in that room will ever know the love my mom had given me but me. They would never know.
My mom soul can rest now from the pain she endured and the shit she got from the nurses at that demented hospital. Please watch your families if they're ever emitted into a hospital.
41-45, F
