I Am Sick Of Living With My Mental Health Problems

Sometimes the medication allows me to cope, and put on a front so that I appear to be almost normal.. But lately the mood swings have been getting worse, even the highest dose of my medication isn't helping, I feel like im falling apart.. I've become physically sick, unable to stop shaking, chest pains, stomach cramps, headaches, lethargy and insomnia plague me.. I'm having hallucinations, my body releases massive surges of adrenaline causing a feeling like ten minutes worth of information sound light and sensation is compressed into two seconds of space causing my whole body to tense up then explode with a massive tremor/whole body tick.. It's getting scary, verging on totally unbearable leaving me searching in that instant for an easy out, I've had to shut all my knives and tools away where I cant reach them when that happens..

I've had enough, I just want this to stop